OPEN GATE TO BALKAN

…here,

with me lives that mocking soul all soundless,
without deeds and gestures, at the waters’ edge,
hidden behind the verdure like stillness after death,
in me you live, mocking soul swearing at time,
and at the disposable ideas of my parents

tired of illusions,

I stretch my hand out fondly and feel no more than nature,

not the firm hand of  man,
I reach out and touch only nature,
the wildest sensation of loneliness,

And still they trust sun bakes sweet loaves of clay bread,

strength dwindles, the mind steams off, smokes,
the sensation vomits

because of the reek of the human statue on the eve;
while it’s reborn in april
and I do not fear much the highlander’s rhapsodic white clod,
while it appears naïve within me, –

…lute…, clarinet…, drone…
the mortarboard placed overhead
woolen condom for the brain
fills me with dread, scares me to death, that alone.

PERPETUM MOBILE

The province  hushes, the doors shut
with my soul’s accordion, hark
the twilight drains out like salt, the salt
on eucalyptus bark and the shoulders of loaders in harbor.

The flies of memory murmur the glory,

together with the wait,
the children regurgitate it in classrooms.

May mothers rot!

Who with the spoons of insanity sate
them of forefathers who freely wrote,
on water, on sand and slate.

 But I who was born to elsewhere decline,
in tongue, as says my  old friend,
am pining, and ruined by a renaissance line:
in Durrës, ‘only sunset is grand’ – superb.